Girls that grew up too fast
Don’t let the title of this blog post confuse you, I do not, at all, consider myself to be a grown up. But, there is something to be said for girls who were too eager to grow up way too young. I do, personally, fall into this category. Loud and proud! I wouldn’t want it any other way though. I have been dying to write this because I know that so many of my friends and people reading this can relate. So, if people ever told you that you were mature for your age, or that you acted like a 20 year old at the ripe age of 12, this one’s for you!
Not at all blaming this on you guys (hi Bridget and Colleen) but having two older sisters definitely was a contributing factor to me growing up so quick. I remember sitting in my sisters’ rooms watching them and their friends getting ready for parties and thinking they were the coolest people in the whole world and just hoping that one day I could be like them. I was twelve years old listening to them gossip about boys, and sex, and parties and I was so pissed off I wasn’t there yet. So, naturally, all of that became very glamorized to me. Being a teenage girl and having that independence in your prime was all I ever wanted. So I thought I would just get there on my own, screw everyone who had anything to say about it.
Being one of those girls who starts dressing too slutty and starts doing things too early garners a lot of attention in middle school. Which brings me to my next point, somewhat unrelated but something I want to say nonetheless, fuck the kinds of adults who text and gossip and spread rumors about little girls, like literally get a life. But as a girl who grew up too quickly, it does kind of just come with the territory.
Anyway, back on topic, I want to make it clear that I am not condoning this kind of behavior or suggesting that young girls dress to look like they’re 18 and steal booze from their parents and flirt with older boys, but it is the experience of a lot of teenage girls and I think we should all talk about it. Like actually what the fuck was that. Now looking back I’m like babe you’ve got plenty of time to be doing all that later why can’t you just like do a gymnastics class and chill out? But at the time, all I was focused on was getting older. I thought once I was old enough and cool enough to be like my sisters and their friends who I looked up to, that’s when I would finally be happy. Spoiler alert, that’s not how it works.
With all that being said, I don’t really have a conclusion or a pretty ending to tie this up. I’m still figuring it out. I grew up too fast and I’m glad that I now have the chance to look back at things in hindsight and talk about them with you guys. I’m also glad that a lot of my friends have been with me the whole way and that we got to grow up too fast together <3
